Happy Birthday
So make a wish
Please accept my apologies, I wonder what would have been
Would you have been a little angel or an angel of sin?
Tomboy running ’round, hanging with all the guys
Or a little tough boy with beautiful brown eyes
I paid for the murder before they determined the sex
Choosing our life over your life meant your death
And you never got a chance to even open your eyes
Sometimes I wonder as a fetus if you fought for your life
Would you have been a little genius? In love with math?
Would you have played in your school clothes and made me mad?
Would you have been a little rapper like your poppa The Piper?
Would you have made me quit smoking by finding one of my lighters?
I wonder about your skin tone and shape of your nose
And the way you would’ve laughed and talked fast or slow
Think about it every year, so I picked up a pen
Happy birthday, love you whoever you would’ve been
Happy Birthday
(What I thought was a dream)
Make a wish
(Was as real as it seemed)
Happy Birthday
(What I thought was a dream)
Make a wish
(Was as real as it seemed)
(I made a mistake)
I got a million excuses, to why you died
And bet the people got their own reasons for homicide
Who’s to say it would’ve worked and who’s to say it wouldn’t have
I was young and struggling, but old enough to be your dad
The fear of being my father has never disappeared
Pondering it frequently while I’m sippin’ on my beer
My vision of a family was artificial and fake
So when it came time to create, I made a mistake
Now you got a little brother, maybe he’s really you
Maybe you really forgave us knowing we was confused
Maybe, every time that he smiles it’s you proudly
Knowing that your father’s doing the right thing now
I never tell a woman what to do with her body
But if she don’t love children, then we can’t party
Think about it every year, so I picked up a pen
Happy birthday, love you whoever you would’ve been
Happy Birthday
(What I thought was a dream)
Make a wish
(Was as real as it seemed)
Happy Birthday
(What I thought was a dream)
Yeah
Make a wish
(Was as real as it seemed)
(I made a mistake)
And from the Heavens to the womb to the Heavens again
From the ending to the ending, never got to begin
Maybe one day we could meet face to face
In a place without time and space
Happy birthday
From the Heavens to the womb to the Heavens again
From the ending to the ending, never got to begin
Maybe one day we could meet face to face
In a place without time and space
Happy Birthday
(What I thought was a dream)
Make a wish
(Was as real as it seemed)
Happy Birthday
(What I thought was a dream)
Make a wish
(Was as real as it seemed)
(I made a mistake)